i go back to school in two days. senior year. damn. i don't know if i'm ready. i'm so freaking sick of people asking me what i'm going to do with my life. i hate saying i don't know. i actually hate not knowing. i don't feel comfortable without a plan. but i feel like god doesn't want me to have a plan right now because he is going to move in my life and if i had a plan, he would probably change it anyway.
am i ready to be done with goucher? i think so. but i'm not ready to give up gcf. i'm not ready to stop iv. that's why i'm thinking about staff. because it's changed my life so much, i think if i stay involved, it will keep changing my life. i don't want to lose that.
i don't want to lose anything. after how many years, look how long i've been holding on to you.